I am very inspired by fairy tales. I will continue to draw from them as well as fantasy, horror, and science fiction. I love fairy tales because they are simple and true. Many fairy tales are about rites of passage from girlhood to womanhood. I picked The Little Mermaid because I found the image of a mermaid with a human to be very compelling. I wondered if they would fall in love and what sex would be like between them. I am fascinated by the ocean. It is a strange world that seems as alien to me as outer space. I love the Hans Christian Andersen story. It is very lyrical and haunting. Also, I was disturbed by the misogynistic vibe of the Disney version. I wanted to address some of those things in my own way. I work with materials that both fascinate and repulse me. I mix something pretty with something ugly and my brain tries to make sense of it.
A good writer is able to create believable characters and bring liveliness in them. In Planet Mermaid, not only is the main protagonist Lilia alive and compelling, but it feels like you were able to breathe her in and truly become her. Was it difficult to do so?
She is me but she is not. She is her own person but I drew from my own feelings and experiences. Honestly, I think the story is actually a metaphor about what it was like for me to move from Mexico to the Midwest when I was 12 years old. It was a desolate landscape, just like the surface of Planet Mermaid. There were pros and cons. I lost my friends but I gained new opportunities. I always felt like an alien. My first story in high school was about an alien who falls to earth and gets exploited by Hollywood. Basically if Marilyn Monroe was actually an alien. These themes of alienation and exploitation run through all my work. The hardest part to write was the rape scene. I was stuck for weeks on it. I just could not write it. It was too traumatic for me.
Planet Mermaid reads like prose, but it has more of a poetic feel to it—very lyrical and melodic. It’s also very visually-striking—stark at times, vibrant in other instances. Did any artists in particular influence the way it was written?
I admire the style and language of writers like Vladimir Nabokov, Oscar Wilde, and Marcel Proust. I also love the visceral intensity of horror authors like Poppy Z. Brite and Clive Barker. Tanith Lee and Angela Carter were my main muses, as far as how to do a modernized fairy tale. Anne Sexton and Sylvia Plath are my main poetic muses. I love their powerful imagery and how their poetry is beautiful but also raw and emotionally supercharged. Sylvia Plath is my main literary influence. When I read Ariel I wanted to write stories the way she writes poetry. I wanted to recreate that surrealistic horror in prose.
We at Luna Luna also love Lana Del Rey—she’s our goddess and our muse. How did you discover her? Was it love at first ‘hearing’?
My boyfriend, Christoph Paul, is who turned me on to her. A year and a half ago I moved to New York City to follow my heart and be with him. That summer all I listened to was Lana Del Rey. I think he is finally sick of her now because she is all I play. I adore her. I was hooked instantly. She inspires my writing, my fashion, probably even my behavior. When I get into something I go full Method with it. When I was younger Madonna was my muse. I taught myself to sew so I could make costumes and dress up like her. I really thought I was her. In high school Courtney Love was my fashion and literary muse. ‘Live through This’ had a massive influence on my poetry. It has been a while since a muse swept me up like this. Lana has the stuff. She is true raw talent and that is why she is so special. Smoke and mirrors can only get you so far.
What motto do you live by?
Be yourself, believe in yourself, and be true to yourself.
Any advice to aspiring authors out there?
Write every single day even if you do not feel inspired. Be humble and work hard. Read a lot and read a lot of different kinds of things. Reach outside of your comfort zone. Make yourself visible on more than one social media platform. Facebook is ok but Twitter has a much wider reach. These days, writing is not just locking yourself up in a garret and sending your ink and tear stained manuscript to one loyal patron. This is a multimedia age. You are in control of your own image, so craft it. Interact with your readers. Humility, hard work, and focus will get you a long way. Talent is useless without focus and dedication.